I think I’ve been lying to myself for a while now…….
people who think that they’re the only people who can be sad, that others can’t be sad because of materialistic reasons…..those people are wrong
probably 9/10 days I’m happy…..doesn’t mean my sad days don’t happen/ aren’t real
think before you speak
Sometimes we cry to feel closer to the ones we cry about
It’s all ending and endings are scary for me
You make me feel as if I can’t breathe, because I’m choking
Sometimes I wish I could take back everything I’ve ever said
My life consits of: rolling around in my bed and screaming when I remember all of the terrible things/ things I shouldn’t have said/ things I shouldn’t have done
Amnesia would be nice
It sucks in friendship, when you want to put in the effort in a friendship but are too stubborn or dragged down by jealousy or insecurities that make you sabotage the friendship. I have ruined so many friendships just by comparing my friendship with a certain person to their friendships with others. It just makes me feel like shit like i’m not funny enough or laid back enough…..there’s always something that ruins the friendship. But then I realized that it was me comparing myself to others that really sabotaged the friendship. Because even though it may be different than the friendships that they have with someone else: it doesn’t mean that it’s worse or better; it means they’re different. I want to work on being a better friend. A lot of times I feel like i can feel myself progressively farther away from somebody else and I honestly just give up and I hate that. I feel it happening now and it sucks. Sometimes I impulsively dislike my own friends merely because I’m convinced that they don’t like me. I just want to feel like someone actually appreciates my friendship and wants to be friends with me. I could be so much better friends with all my friends if I just stopped comparing myself to others. To my friends: I want to be friends.